Cure-Alls

I'm now on the oh-so exclusive Google+. So far, it's definitely not bad. It's simple, ad-free, easy-to-use, and full of tutorials and explanations. I definitely like that I can choose who sees what, which is incredibly difficult to do on Facebook. I don't have to delete or block someone in order to keep them from seeing something heh. Gossip will be fun! (Kidding. Gossip is reserved for real life and the occasional IM conversation.) I have high hopes for the site. I know it'll be a lot more fun once Jon and John aren't my only friends.

Today was a little better. Not without drama, but I made myself clear, I think. I'm not really one to back down when I set my mind on something, so I think that in a week or so, I'll have an easier time of these changes. (Maybe not, considering I'll probably be menstrual, but after that, I should be good.)

I think that for me, there are two things that can cure just about any shitty feelings I might have: yoga and Green Day. Jawbreaker helps, too, of course, but that's best for anger and general angst while Green Day can address just about anything I'm feeling. Longing for love? Having an internal crisis? Feeling alone and all-around fucked up? Green Day's got a song for it. I feel like if you don't at least sort of enjoy Green Day, you can't be human or you've just never paid adequate attention to their music. A lot of people (da punx, especially) like to write them off as "faggy pop-punk sell-outs" or something, but I think that's bullshit. To each their own, of course, but... Eh, if I go on, I'll go on forever.

I'm really getting into the habit of blogging more frequently. I kind of like that. Even though I'm just venting and no one's really reading, it feels good to write my thoughts down publicly. Writing is writing, as far as I'm concerned, and every little bit helps me improve in some small way. I'm probably too good at bitching about stupid things, but eh, it's still practice. It has to count for something.

Sitting at home doing nothing is getting really old. I need a vacation ASAP. My mind is incredibly set on a week or two alone or mostly-alone in the mountains or somewhere woodsy. I think I need time away from people, buildings, technology, and the stress that comes with living in today's world and some quality time with myself and nature. I'm no hippie, but I think we'd all be a lot better off if we stopped focusing so much on chemicals, technology, money, and possessions and just took more time to focus on ourselves (inside and out) and the earth. I think the reason long walks are so calming is because they allow us to zone out and be alone for a while, which tends to help us (or me, at least) pick up on things in our surroundings that we've never really noticed before. It's nice.

Before I sink back into negativity, it's probably time to attempt to get to sleep. I've been tired for hours, probably because I haven't slept well in days, but if I start thinking too much, I'll be up all night. Clearing my mind and repeating positive things to myself is getting a little easier now. I just have to keep telling myself "you're the most important thing in your life." I think I forget that.

SXR