Anxiety

I felt kind of weird all day after last night's numerous incidents. I don't know if they should really be called incidents, but it appears they really did screw me up. Somewhere between 6:30 and 8, I started feeling really anxious and it's only gotten worse. I suppose that explains why I felt so hot last night. I wasn't aware that I really was anxious, but given the upset stomach, fast heartbeat, and weird nervousness, it seems that I am heh. One piece of vegan chocolate cake later, I'm resorting to herbal relaxation tea. Valerian, rose, and lavender, don't fail me now. It would've been nice if Rachal had gotten online to talk like she'd said she would, but whatever. I've grown to expect her to not follow through.

I finished otherXcore #2 today. That's one less thing to worry about and one more thing to feel good about. I did it in less than a year this time! It's really not much of an accomplishment, and it's not as good as I'd like it to be, but finishing a zine is really quite a task, especially when you're doing it alone. I'll get better at it eventually. I've only put out a few.

I guess that's all for now. If I'm up in a few hours, I may return with even less to say.

SXR

Tea time all the time.

I drink tea more than I eat food lately, I think. It's part of my never-ending quest for better health, or at least a slightly better quality of life. Peppermint is becoming my go-to tea, hot and unsweetened. Unsweetened teas of all kinds are really growing on me, which is good considering the fact that I really don't need any more sugar in my diet. If I can ever afford it, I'm going to order a bunch of loose-leaf teas and maybe even some herbs so I can make my own blends. I recently fell in love with Mountain Rose Herbs and would love to purchase or be given many of their products. Ahem.

I haven't been able to sleep at night lately. On top of that, today, I woke up an hour before my alarm was to go off with a sore throat and a stuffy nose. Life sucks sometimes. I'm currently exhausted, but I'd rather not go to bed so early that I'm up again by 6 AM and have nothing to do till late afternoon. Chances are, by the time I go to bed, I won't be able to sleep again.

I've been through probably twenty tissues today, maybe more. I need more tea.

SXR