While my stomach has been slightly better overall, the past few days have been filled with pain in one particular spot and I have no idea why. I keep getting stabbing pains, but I'm not sure whether or not I should really worry. My temperature's fine, I'm not turning yellow, and I can eat, so I have to assume that I'm alright. I would go to the doctor, but based on my last visit, I think he'd basically reiterate what I just said. So, if I really decide to worry tomorrow afternoon, I may stop by urgent care while I'm in Fresno. I haven't been in a while, so they probably miss me.
My anxiety has also been a little better, until the pain started. At least I'm anxious for a reason now, or at least one I'm aware of: I don't want to get sick and die heh. I really prefer this really terrible anxiety regarding my health to the annoying random anxiety I normally get. This comes with more symptoms, but at least it makes sense.
I'm starting to write again. It's coming along a bit more slowly than it used to, but at least I'm not totally blocked up for now. I actually really miss writing papers, which astounds me, but I guess I've always been a fan of analyzing things and writing things with a set purpose. My fiction is almost always plotless because I have serious issues with being concise, so the only way I can ever write anything with a purpose is if it involves some sort of singular topic and research. Part of the whole paper thing probably has to do with the fact that I've been finding myself missing school, which is a little depressing given the fact that college means very little to me these days and I generally don't like being there when I have to. I've just been bored and lonely. All my friends live out of town or have other things to do, so I sit at home and do nothing all day. Simple but lame.
I have very little to say tonight. Lack of sleep and adequate nutrition is definitely catching up to me. Last night, I kept seeing things, and today, I've felt kind of out of it. Hopefully it'll all clear up tomorrow.
SXR
Showing posts with label boredom. Show all posts
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Thursday, July 21, 2011
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Tired
I was going to go for a walk, but I decided against it since I knew everyone would want to join me. I'd rather walk alone for a while; it gives me time to zone out. So, here I am, writing yet another totally pointless blog.
I felt so much better today than I have in days. I kind of feel like shit now that I've had a Moon Pie even though I was trying to limit my sugar as much as possible today, but I still feel a bit better than I have in a while. It probably helped that we had lunch at Sweet Tomatoes, which I love to fucking death. It's hard to beat soup, salad, bread, and muffins. I really have become a salad person in the last few years. I won't eat iceberg lettuce unless I have to, but give me some red leaf lettuce, some spinach, some field greens, and a ton of delicious vegetables and I'm totally set. As a matter of fact, I could go for another salad now. Fuck my doctor's suggestion to lay off of vegetables; I'm a vegetarian and a salad-fiend, so I'll eat all the raw vegetables I want.
Sitting at home is really getting old. If the weather stays decent, I'll spend much more time walking, but it is July, so that can only last for so long. I need to either get really crafty, somehow land a job, or find a friend who will come to me or meet me halfway or something. Maybe I can start a new story that I'll never finish, or maybe even something that I might be able to finish and submit for publication. For someone who wants to make a career of writing, I'm not doing much with it. It doesn't help that it's extremely hard to get started, but I feel like I'm not even trying. I've submitted one short story to two publications; not very impressive. Maybe that can be my summer goal: finish a short story, edit the shit out of it until it's semi-good, and submit it to a few publications.
I'm still dying for a trip to somewhere cooler and more scenic. I'd love to go spend some time alone in the mountains, but I'd also be totally content with a few days in the East Bay, especially because I never get the chance to really explore when I'm there. There are so many places I've been meaning to check out, but I always run out of time. Next time I have the money, I'm going. Fuck responsibility heh; I need to have some fun.
I think I'm actually really looking forward to school. I'm sick of sitting around and feeling like I have no purpose or reason to wake up. Plus, my schedule's really not bad. I've got classes Monday, Wednesday, and a short day on Friday, which should be kind of nice.
That's all for now, I suppose. I may be back.
SXR
I felt so much better today than I have in days. I kind of feel like shit now that I've had a Moon Pie even though I was trying to limit my sugar as much as possible today, but I still feel a bit better than I have in a while. It probably helped that we had lunch at Sweet Tomatoes, which I love to fucking death. It's hard to beat soup, salad, bread, and muffins. I really have become a salad person in the last few years. I won't eat iceberg lettuce unless I have to, but give me some red leaf lettuce, some spinach, some field greens, and a ton of delicious vegetables and I'm totally set. As a matter of fact, I could go for another salad now. Fuck my doctor's suggestion to lay off of vegetables; I'm a vegetarian and a salad-fiend, so I'll eat all the raw vegetables I want.
Sitting at home is really getting old. If the weather stays decent, I'll spend much more time walking, but it is July, so that can only last for so long. I need to either get really crafty, somehow land a job, or find a friend who will come to me or meet me halfway or something. Maybe I can start a new story that I'll never finish, or maybe even something that I might be able to finish and submit for publication. For someone who wants to make a career of writing, I'm not doing much with it. It doesn't help that it's extremely hard to get started, but I feel like I'm not even trying. I've submitted one short story to two publications; not very impressive. Maybe that can be my summer goal: finish a short story, edit the shit out of it until it's semi-good, and submit it to a few publications.
I'm still dying for a trip to somewhere cooler and more scenic. I'd love to go spend some time alone in the mountains, but I'd also be totally content with a few days in the East Bay, especially because I never get the chance to really explore when I'm there. There are so many places I've been meaning to check out, but I always run out of time. Next time I have the money, I'm going. Fuck responsibility heh; I need to have some fun.
I think I'm actually really looking forward to school. I'm sick of sitting around and feeling like I have no purpose or reason to wake up. Plus, my schedule's really not bad. I've got classes Monday, Wednesday, and a short day on Friday, which should be kind of nice.
That's all for now, I suppose. I may be back.
SXR
Monday, April 4, 2011
Ups and Downs
As I type this, I'm struggling to stay awake thanks to a migraine, as well as the lavender oil on my temples and cup of hot tea I'm attempting to remedy it with. I think my head only hurts because my hair is dirty. (That's the number one reason I'll never be a crust punk. I guess the fact that I don't listen to the music is a big part of that, too, but half the crusties I've come into contact with don't, either.)
I noticed that I have yet to gush about kefir here, so I decided to do that tonight. I've been drinking kefir smoothies (Lifeway) for two weeks or more, at least a cup a day, and I've felt amazing! I can finally digest my food again and not feel like shit all the time! I really have noticed a change in my body since I've started drinking it, so I'm going to continue doing so. I'd like to start making my own so I can have fresh kefir smoothies every morning, but I have no idea where to get starter grains in the area, and I'm trying not to buy the powder starters, so if anyone knows of a good seller in Central California, let me know!
The Bel-Tower has been in our possession for six months now. Six months! It's hard to believe we've made it this far. It's been ridiculously difficult, but definitely equally fulfilling. We've had our fair share of issues with people (such as the infamous pity party incident on April 1), but so many people have shown us love and support that it almost brings a sappy little tear to my eye. As long as people keep that love and support up, I know we can keep the collective up and running. There are so many things I still want to do with it.
My last batch of vegan donuts was great. I tried some new icing flavors (lemon and orange vanilla) which came out great. I'm hoping to make donuts more often; people like them, they're not hard to make, and I need money! I give major props to Jan of Stay Sweet Cupcakes; the amount of baking she does sometimes is insane, and even if I try to do this more often, even regularly, I don't think I could ever manage to do the amount of work she does. What's nice about donuts is that they require no decorating skills; that makes them perfect for me.
I finished a painting today. I want to hang it at The Bel-Tower, but I'm slightly afraid it'll be stolen. Haley's have never been stolen, but all three of mine disappeared and they sucked. Maybe someone has shitty taste in art and bad manners?
SXR
I noticed that I have yet to gush about kefir here, so I decided to do that tonight. I've been drinking kefir smoothies (Lifeway) for two weeks or more, at least a cup a day, and I've felt amazing! I can finally digest my food again and not feel like shit all the time! I really have noticed a change in my body since I've started drinking it, so I'm going to continue doing so. I'd like to start making my own so I can have fresh kefir smoothies every morning, but I have no idea where to get starter grains in the area, and I'm trying not to buy the powder starters, so if anyone knows of a good seller in Central California, let me know!
The Bel-Tower has been in our possession for six months now. Six months! It's hard to believe we've made it this far. It's been ridiculously difficult, but definitely equally fulfilling. We've had our fair share of issues with people (such as the infamous pity party incident on April 1), but so many people have shown us love and support that it almost brings a sappy little tear to my eye. As long as people keep that love and support up, I know we can keep the collective up and running. There are so many things I still want to do with it.
My last batch of vegan donuts was great. I tried some new icing flavors (lemon and orange vanilla) which came out great. I'm hoping to make donuts more often; people like them, they're not hard to make, and I need money! I give major props to Jan of Stay Sweet Cupcakes; the amount of baking she does sometimes is insane, and even if I try to do this more often, even regularly, I don't think I could ever manage to do the amount of work she does. What's nice about donuts is that they require no decorating skills; that makes them perfect for me.
I finished a painting today. I want to hang it at The Bel-Tower, but I'm slightly afraid it'll be stolen. Haley's have never been stolen, but all three of mine disappeared and they sucked. Maybe someone has shitty taste in art and bad manners?
SXR
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